guess what? im bored! hahaks. eke. like thats anything new.
just came bec from McD.. dinner wit mom and sis. usually i wud haf found it irritating but guess i was feeling good tonight so yehh, i had a fun time toking to my mom and sis. i told her [this is something i tend to avoid.] what i felt bout my dad.. i feel like he still sees me as a little girl. i just dun geddit. he always gives me this look and from his eyes, i see that he thinks im sumone who cannot be trusted or irresponsible which is not fair considering that between me and my sis [everybody loves her more], im the more responsible one.

i told my mom all that and she told me some things i
never knew that cud be true. she sez that my dad hates it when SHE scolds me, but its orite fer him. and she sez that wen she calls me wen im coming home late or sth.. my dad oways say to her.."jgn marah die laa.." [translation: dun scold her laa].. my mom sez that my dad loves me alot more than he loves my sister *sniff*.. but just doesnt show it.. when i was little, my dad and i were veri close. according to my mom, i wud hug scream everytime he comes home.. "ABAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!" [translation: DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!] and run to him and hug his legs [of cuz laa. i was small what. cannot reach any higher].. i totally rmbr that and it will always remain as my sweet memories.

she sed that whenever they fought, my dad will
take me n he and i will go out.. i do rmbr going out wit him alot. just me and my abah. why did things change? i still love my dad. MORE than i can ever admit. why izzit that now, when i look at him, i see scorn? it's like he hates me. *shakes head* i just dont geddit. mebbe he cannot accept that the little girl who used to stick her hand into the back pocket of his jeans while walking is finally growing up [and that she's way too tall to stick her hand in the pocket anymore]..