i just switched off the lights in my room and left the monitor on just to see what it was like to sit in the dark. creepy. hehe.

It's so nice sitting very still.
In a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day,
I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart?
I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take a seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer.
But now I'm dead.

-SENSES Fail, One Eight Seven

if my parents let me [why do i feel so kiddish wen i type that out? "if my parents let me"?!] , i want to invest in white and red paint. hehe. blood splatters might just work. but im afraid i'll freak myself out. ha. but it cud work. i bet it'll be bleeding fun. hmm. if it doesnt, my soon-to-be old skul shuz will just hafta do. nyaHAH. [i notice i say that a lot in real life].

i went to woodlands lib, saw jen and i sat wit her. i ended up stoned after 1/2 an hour [jen and i tried looking fer some TN guide books but the stupid place din haf any] and so decided to read some no-brainers instead. i went up to the children's section to get myself Dr. Seuss books. cuz i know he has BIG COLORFUL books. enuff to keep me happy the whole week if i stare long enuff. but sadly, i cudnt find any. stupid. pissed me off. and THAT SMELL.

its a well-known fact that the children's section is filled with yes, u guessed it. mats and minahs and other lower-sec shitheads of other races. hahah. did u say children? wth made u think that? their presense liberates a pungent nauseating smell that will knock off anyone who dares step foot in the place. im from woodlands. guess im just immune to their shit. and the noise level. lets just say the children's section incognito is not part of the lib. its a whole new level altogether. and a gud thing too. it keeps them off everybody's nerves. cuz we all know theyre NOT there to study. and wtf is reading? never heard of it.

that was depressing. i had to settle with Disney's mags instead [it was colorful]. hahah. i sat there a while longer and left jen to wait fer her SA guy. hehe. jen is prolly still at the lib since she leaves only when its about to close. huhoo~ people gave me weird looks. i swear to you. they were looking trying to guess my sexuality. hahah. cuz i was in a sweatshirt and bermz. mebbe im just paranoid. it was fun. nyaHAH. [there i go again]. before i start spewing nonsense. see u tomorrow on kids central!

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