i had a riff wit jihan earlier this week. i can tell you, it sucked. becuz the one person i oways toked to wasnt toking to me. and today, we did sth both of us never did befo. we confronted each other. i was initially afraid, wondering what to say.

somehow, it wasnt ankward. im glad she finally sed what she felt was wrong with me. ahakz. oh boi. i din know how bad i was until she sed it out and i thot about it. most of what she sed was true. bout me changing for the worse. hehe. she sed the one thing that changed about me was my lack of sensitivity. in oder words, i was becoming more of an insensitive bitch. :)))

i was there to listen to her problems, but as a friend, i was no longer there to provide her comfort when she needed it.

apparently, nowadays, i dont listen. i'll just choose to forget. weird how i dun rmbr things...that usually wud seem impt to me. jihan told me of many innstances when i just brushed off things. brushed HER off. and fer the life of me, i dun rmbr ever doing that.

in the end, we worked out our differences and now we're fine. today, we went off understanding each other a little better and no one will know how happy i feel except God, that finally, someone understands me. no one. it hurts to think. i get hurt when i think about things, so i let it go. i luff it off. or i'd sing it off. mebbe even cry it off. but im not one to ever rmbr that thing again. cuz like i sed, it hurts.

people change, and they might see me as a bitch. but after what jihan and i sed to each other today, i realise im only willing to change fer those who cares. and right now, its only jihan i care for. cuz i dunnoe the rest of you. AND u dunnoe me.



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