took the song down.

i donno what the hell is going through my head these days. i hate myself so much. im thankful fer what i haf but i am feeling this strong dislike about my being. i hate my personality. i hate the way i do things. the way i talk and walk. i hate how so unfeminine and unattractive i am. i hate my cowardice. ESPECIALLY HATE MY COWARDICE. i hate the way i create problems for myself and get so fucking deluded. i hate EVERYTHING there is to hate about me.

a change is in order. i did it once din i? i dont see why i cant do it again. i sound troubled but im not. i just think that im just a very hatable person and quite disgusting as a human being. i can even taste my own vomit right now. i dont wish to be someone else. i just wish i haf the will to change. because i relli. loathe. myself.





SO LET ME GO AND FALL ASLEEP





WHEN I WAKE UP IT WONT BE















NO IT WONT BE ME.

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