i a m s o s i c k . . .

my fingers and feet are so cold, the rest of my body is 40degrees, my head is spinning, my nose hurts and i have difficulty breathing. but im thankful. it can be a lot worst. at least im not barfing blood.

my body is aching but i have no idea if its the PE i had ytd or the menses im having now or the cold im about to get. hmm.

annas is so weird. i cannot understand him. CANNOT. he is incomprehensible beyond reason. when we were walking just now, he said, "im sori. but i cant tell you what im sori for cos i dont think u shud know."

obviously i wanted to know what the hell he was apologising for so i begged him to tell me.

he then gave me that "slap-me-i-nid-a-fucking-slap" look and took back his apology. what the hell? so i told him to think about his rationale which isnt rational at all. i know people have pride but its very rare when i talk calmly in these situations. it shows that im thinking instead of just blurting out fricken profanities. usually, i'll be the first one to get pissed off.

seriously. we're not 12 anymore. i donno laa. u are about to be an adult and if u choose to let ur heart do the thinking all the time, i haf nothing to say to you anymore.

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