i didnt feel like going to skul, so here i am playing with my kuzzin. i know this is wrong. this is not being thankful to God who has given me this chance to skul. :(

im confused.

can everyone please erase me from the mind? so that i dont have to talk to you? so that i wont have to be a phony. is it wrong for me not to smile? must there be something wrong with me if im not smiling?

i miss the days where i can not smile and random things will just come to my mind and when i say it, nadia will say another random thing. and we start psycho-analysing. haha.

i miss luffing at all the weird sounds karen made in class.

i miss waving at vk, karen, nadz and faz in class.

i miss making weird faces at faz when goh's teaching.

i miss getting scared half to death by jx's sneezes.

i miss yati's absolute hate towards assnah.

i miss waving at liy when i pass by her class.

i miss ducking behind anyone/any pillar/anything when assnah is approaching.

i miss xp and jp's huggs and how sweet they were.

i miss the scheming and teacher-bitching/imitating.

i miss the juice stall uncle who nvr knew my name but remembered what i always wanted despite the hundreds of students who patronise his stall everyday.

i miss the captain's ball-turned-rugby games we played during pe.

i miss luffing at the psycho nyonya who allegedly pisses in her stall. [lol. who the hell came up wit that? hahaha]

i miss assnah's crap. u have to admit she was a gud teacher at some point of time. she's a lot better than my malay teacher now. makes me think twice before wanting to take malay A.

i miss taking 265 to central.

i miss getting lost at central despite having been going there for 4 years.

i miss decorating noticeboards.

i miss the container block.

i miss going opposite even though the best they had to offer was waffles.

i miss choc/peanut-butter/cheese waffles and the aunty who sold them.

i miss going to NY to eat even tho we often got stared at.

i miss choir 2001-2002.

i miss choir/skipping choir/choir performances.

i never knew that i'll miss so many things. i never knew how big a part anderson played in my life. the people i grew up with. the people who saw me change. the people who i dont feel weird with. hell, i was weird around them and all they did was being weirder than me. haha.

hur. i guess it REALLY bothers me having to smile like some fake in my skul all day.
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