when reality hit me that JC was out of the option, i broke down. partly becos i thot my mother was gonna hate me and partly cos i thot i had to spend the next 3 yrs of my life in MI. i cried relli hard. if not for my friends who were there to comfort me, i wud have not went home last night. then it wud have been the whole 2003 episode all over again.

i love you guys. :) :) :) :) and congrats to those who made it into the jc of their choice. i am REALLY REALLY sorry i didnt congratulate anyone ytd. too caught up in snot.

i had a long talk with my mother when i got home and basically she's happy i graduated, to put it simply. of cos she was disappointed. but i guess she's happy that i am happy. so i felt considerably much better cos i really thot she wud hate me.

im not happy. thats a lie. the truth is, im euphoric. i finally get to do something i want. the lowdown: fees. close to $2000. so a job is in order. i cant depend on my parents. they're already struggling to make ends meet. so imma try and get a job so they wont feel the pinch.

i had some qns that needed answers so i asked yazid to accompany me to nyp and tp. i didnt know the polys were having like a 2nd open hse. k. not relli. the teachers were there to answer qns the future students had. haha. and i had a blast asking them stuff. espech when i asked the visual comm lect at tp. he was uber kul. can tell he's whacked.

and now i haf hardly any worries and a new sense of purpose in my life. hee.
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