i miss diq. i miss chot. im a jerk. thats all. isk wants us to be more than friends and i keep telling him no. i KEPT telling him no. now im not so sure what to say to him. all for the experience. haha. if anything good comes out of it, i'll share it, yo. then there's zaidi. i've known him for 3 years, almost. we've never met. and i blocked him on MSN. i dont know why. i block people whenever i feel like it. i avoid people for no reason. then when i feel like it, i unblock/unavoid them. totally assholic right? well, i was supposed to meet him sometime during puasa, but i never did. why? cos im avoiding him. he didnt do anything wrong, thats the thing and there's nothing wrong with him. i owe people testimonials and im not about to write them any. hoho. am i one of those people who like to "menghilangkan" diri? those people who can be assholes without even trying? i don't know what the extent of my assholic behaviour is. it doesnt worry me but karma does. i said i'll make a skin for zu but have i done it? no. when will i get around to doing it? a bonus question with no answer, no points and more importantly, no prizes. haha! ah shit. im such an ass. this entry hasnt helped me at all! i was hoping it would, but i feel indifferent. ok, all i know is, i have new bedsheets and i like the royal-ish colors. also, i watched the great raid with dee today and it was a total riot! I AM NOT GIVING UP ON OLD FRIENDS & hopefully, they wont give up on me either.

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