my mind's pretty fucked up right now after finding out the things i did. i am almost heartbroken. i dont know why i let it get to me. maybe because i do like him that much. he's gonna tell me about it soon and that will be it. i am not angry. i am sad and disappointed. i know its not his intentions to hurt but the thing is, he has. or he will be rather. but how can he let me lean against his shoulders. how can he make me feel like time cannot get any faster when im with him. it is probably my fault. but for once. i thought this could be different. i should have never gotten my hopes up so high. since i know more than he thinks i do, i'll save him. i'll do what it takes to make everything seem like normal and that i never had anything for him. it's NOT about being the gallant one. i think it's called being nice. friends before everything else. so yea.

MOVING ON.

i had a great day today! dee and i wore green! no kite tak janji. we did a good deed today cos we donated blood. woo! its an experience like no other (which experience comes with free food? hoho). it was also then that i found out my weight. WHUARGH. i dont think i'm healthy anymore. too much macs i tell you!

then for the first time, we met fattah. HAHA. man! the dude's bursting with childlike energy. he was so friendly. watching his antics was amusing. we played some songs at macs and basically annoyed those who were there. flint was there and we found out just how intellectual he is. looks like a mat but talks like a scholar. what he had to say was so interesting. and he could talk about other guys! haha. gosh i can go on and on. i wish he didnt wanna quit LA. i'll miss seeing him flirt with Ili. :(

the meeting was like any other meetings but with lesser people.

and that about sums up my day. which was quite okay. haha. sorry. i just had to make it rhyme. speaking of rhyme. i have storyboarding to do now. erk. :x lucky im not sleepy. haha ok bye.

*stay tuned for pictures. im toolaazy to ul them*
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